These days, saying DON’T GO seems to be stuck in my throat, I keep on reminding myself that I cannot be selfish! I shouldn’t be! Saying it would immediately make me choke with tears… But Don’t go, and break this fragile heart. But break it, only if it would help mend yours, and I mean it from the deepest point in my heart. </3
You are my best friend, and I love you dearly, and I would die if you weren’t there for me. But right now, I don’t think I’m your best friend. I hardly see you anyway, so the one time a week I get to see you, I’m really happy.
When you use that time we have together to tell me about a boy for five seconds and then move on to other people, that hurts.
And I wish I could just call you and tell you this now, but I’m terrified. I’m terrified of losing my best friend. I can tell my best friend everything. Who I like, why I’m not going to the dance, what I did last night. I could tell you everything. I think the problem is that I don’t have anything to tell.
I’m not even sure if this whole thing is about you or me any more. The point is, I’m terrified of losing you. I’m a really jealous creature; I don’t know if you knew that. When you hang out with other people, I get jealous. And I hate that I’m like that, because I know how it feels to have someone want you all to themselves. But I can’t help feeling it anyway.
Have you ever felt like everything in the world was wrong, and nothing you could do would possibly make it right? :(
